Casting blows.

I have been feeling down lately. I haven't been getting cast lately which hurts. I want to be better. I want to be so good people can't help but cast me. Oh well.

Today I prayed

Today was strange to say the least. I didn't have a good one, I stressed all day about everything and didn't do as well as I wanted in any of them. Then when I tried to explain it to the people around me I get overcome and can't explain how truly disappointed I am in myself, so no one thinks its a big deal. I think it's a big deal and I wanted support, so I get quiet and upset. On the way home I drove by the temple and I prayed, and I know someone was listening. They understood, they felt for me, for my situation and I know it is going to be better. I began to drive home and the song "Let it Be Me" came on and it confirmed that someone knows it was a rough day. Tomorrow is going to be better, I am putting it out there.

Disappointment

I have been feeling disappointed lately. I am disappointed in how people treat one another. I am disappointed in how I have been treated. I think it is inappropriate for a professor to talk to and about me the way they did. I am even disappointed in my lack of a love life. I just want it all to go away. I want to have a great summer. I want to get into The Hit at HTCO ( there is a really good part for me.) I want to love someone. I want to lose some weight, and frankly, I don't want to be disappointed. SO, following the Law of Attraction, here it is world, I am putting it out there: I want to be Steve in the Hit (do-able,) I want to find someone who is a match with me, I want to be a success. All of my goals from now on will be towards theses directions. Thanks for listening

Un-loveable

Pardon me while I take a trip to depressed town.... Do you ever feel un-loveable?

I have been lately, I don't know why the pieces aren't working the way I want them to but they aren't. I try. You really don't have to read this if you don't want to, I am writing it down just to get it out. It's just not working for me. Not now anyway. I hate being a grown up and I wish things just worked out like they used to.

Consider me Purged.

This is why I shouldn't read...

I was pretty excited for Christmas this year because I asked for a Nook. I learned on my trip to London that taking books everywhere is really hard to do. I ended up leaving some of the books I bought for the trip in London, which upset me. When this year's Holiday season came around I knew I was going to ask for a Nook. Well, I got one and I downloaded my first book (futuristic, right?) I am very disappointed to say it is probably the WORST book I have ever read... so much for a good streak. Oh, Well.

I am good person

Another Semester is over and I couldn't be happier. I think I have found what I want to be when I grow up: a good person.

I know that may sound stupid to you, but in fact its true. I mean, of course, if I grew up to be an okay person it would be... okay, but recently I decided all I want is to be a man people look up to. I say this because I have thought about my life and all that stuff, and really I just want to be a good person. I don't want to decide specifics, does that make me a bad person?

Sparks

But I promise you this,
I'll always look out for you.
That's what I'll do.